Fantasia Fest ’23: Sometimes I Think About Dying

Sometimes I Think About Dying tells the story of Fran (Daisy Ridley), a quiet woman who lives a solitary life. Although she works within an office setting, Fran intentionally keeps to herself, even in social settings. However, when the new guy in the office reaches out to her, she finds herself with an opportunity at a relationship but also feels more exposed than ever before.

Directed by Rachel Lambert, Sometimes I Think About Dying is a quiet and introspective look at the insecurity and mental health issues that plague us all. This is a film that is meant to sit in silence. The camera allows life to unfold in front of us with all the pain and awkwardness that comes from everyday social interactions. 

As Fran, Ridley delivers an incredibly difficult performance that is captured almost entirely through her facial expressions. Although best known for her role in Star Wars, her performance here is stripped down and raw. Fran is an emotionally complex character to bring to life as she lives a solitary life yet the embers of life still burn within her. 

Though known by everyone in the office, Fran isn’t really known by anyone. She is the proverbial fly on the wall and her greatest desire is to remain unnoticed. Plagued by fear and hurt, Fran believes that her life is meaningless to everyone, including herself. When she finds herself invited into social situations, she lives in constant fear that she is being judged by those around her. When she is alone at home, she sits within her anxiety, watching each moment pass by slowly. As such, she refuses to open up for anybody, keeping her dreams of death to herself. After all, she’s certain that those around her wish that that she’s just disappear anyways. 

Sometimes I Think About Dying is now playing at Fantasia Fest ’23. For more information, click here.

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